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[Zichen raises Xue Yang's head by grabbing onto his chin.]

I've been happy with you. We've build a nice life on the Barge; a life I thought impossible.

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[ It's impossible not to immediately melt into that touch, so Xue Yang doesn't even try to hide his reaction.

He smiles a little and turns his head to nuzzle Song Lan's palm. ]

Mm... I really hated this place at first, but I guess it's not that bad.

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[Zichen brushes their lips together once. Twice. Okay, three times. Then he smiles softly and caresses Xue Yang's cheek.]

Your cabin is cruel. How could you be comfortable in a place like that?

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[ Xue Yang grins happily under those kisses, responding to each of them. ]

It wasn't so bad at first. It was kind of comforting, but... then it was just a shitty fucking reminder of how badly I fucked everything up.

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[Zichen tucks Xue Yang against him after the kisses end, his chest aching.]

I couldn't leave you there. [Just seeing Xue Yang in those rooms a handful of times had been too much.] I want you to move on from...Yi City...with me.

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[ Xue Yang easily curls up against Song Lan's chest, putting a hand over his heart. ]

I want to. I want to at least... try.

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[He looks...so fragile. Like this. Not a terror. Not a murderer. Zichen nuzzles Xue Yang's hair.]

You're with me. You won't fail.

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[ He chuckles softly and presses a kiss to Song Lan's collarbone. ]

I want to take care of you too. You deserve to be cared for...

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[Zichen traces over Xue Yang's side and down to his hip.]

Aren't you caring for me? I notice everything you do, A-Yang. You've been very sweet to me.

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[ Xue Yang swings a leg over Song Lan's lap, clinging a little. ]

Yeah, but I want to do more. It doesn't always have to be me having an embarrassing meltdown and crying in your arms. You can do that too, if you ever need to.

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[He gently squeezes Xue Yang's thigh, welcoming the leg.]

If you noticed...when you are crying...so am I. [Zichen brushes their noses together.]

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[ The cuddling really seems to settle something in his soul. There's just something very reassuring and grounding about being held and touched like this. ]

Mm... but it's still mostly just you comforting me...

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You are comforting me more than you think. [He strokes over Xue Yang's chest with the back of his hand.] The way you touch me and need me... That's what I want.

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[ Xue Yang nods and cuddles even closer. ]

Okay. I just want you to know that you can lean on me... if you ever need to.

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A-Yang... [He is touched at the offer; it's selfless. A sign that his lover is trying to change.] I don't like being...this way. I do miss Xingchen. I don't like being alone here.

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[ He really is trying. The way he'd done things before had only brought misery - for himself and others, and he wants to try doing things differently. He brushes a soft kiss against Song Lan's shoulder as he listens to him. ]

We will get out of here, and you'll be alive again. [ He murmurs softly before sighing a little. ] I miss him too. Did you only talk to him once while he was here...?

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[Zichen strokes over Xue Yang's hair as he speaks, finding comfort in something tactile. His A-Yang is the only one he can touch so freely.]

I'm frightened of that too. I haven't been alive in...a long time. [He has almost forgotten what it feels like.] I spoke to him several times, but only met him once.

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[ Xue Yang nods and leans into his lover's touches. ]

It's going to be fucking weird to be home, but we'll figure it out. We'll be together... that's what's important.

[ He frowns a little, not sure what to say, so he just blurts out: ] That sucks.

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[Zichen's eyes widen and then he blinks. His lips quirk and he finds himself chuckling.]

I will need you. If we're together, I will adapt quickly.

[Then he softens and kisses Xue Yang.]

He...was angry at me. For not telling him how I felt sooner.

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[ Xue Yang smiles a little, happy to have made Song Lan laugh. ]

You better! I hope I get to keep my arm, but if not, I'm definitely gonna need your help...

[ Hearing that makes Xue Yang feel weird inside and all he can do is let out a humorless chuckle. ] And he got mad at me for telling him how I feel. [ What cruel irony. ]

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[Zichen kisses Xue Yang's smile, memorizing it against his lips.]

I will help you. We'll live a peaceful life away from other Cultivators.

[The sound saddens him and he brushes their noses together.]

Too much happened. It ruined our chances, A-Yang. With him, at least.

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[ Xue just smiles more when he's kissed and immediately returns that press of lips against lips. ]

Mm... it'd be hard to explain how we're alive if anyone recognizes us.

[ He ducks his head down a little. ]

I never had a chance in the first place.

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[Zichen shakes his head slowly and presses another kiss to the bridge of Xue Yang's nose.]

We'll be gone before they can be sure of anything. You and I will be like ghosts.

[He arches a brow.]

If you had been honest from the beginning and shown him you wanted to change, you would have stolen his heart.

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[ Xue Yang chuckles softly and kisses his lover's jawline, teasing a little when he next speaks. ]

What if people start to think we're actual ghosts and send cultivators after us?

[ Another humorless chuckle follows. ]

I really doubt that. By the time I started feeling differently... I couldn't tell him. It would've ruined everything. [ The look in his eyes grows a little distant. ] I would've been anonymous forever if I could've only... [ He trails off and sighs, a small shudder going through him. ] B-But, it's no fucking use thinking about that. He's gone. For good now.

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[Zichen snorts and leans into the warm lips, his eyelids half-closed.]

We will be forced to explain and send them on their way.

[He rubs over Xue Yang's back and kisses his cheeks.]

He is with someone who makes him happy. Or...he will be. [Zichen cups Xue Yang's face between his palms.] And you are with me. I know your past; there are no lies between us.